And now I should tell you something, since I would otherwise fall into a fixation. For fifteen days now, perhaps more, the dear Voice has been spurring my heart in these terms:
“Remember your separated brothers and sisters. Remember that you are a victim for their sake, too. Remember that they are sustained by your friend Gabriella, the Trappist.60 Remember that the obstacle of the war has ended. Remember that souls should be helped not only with prayer. Remember that I am the Christ of all and that all Christians belong to Christ. Remember that your mission goes far beyond blood relations and affections. You are the spokesman of the Voice, and the Voice went to everyone. You cannot deny that Voice. Remember that I am loved - as you yourself intuited - more reverently in the other confessions than by you Catholics. There is only one step to be taken in order to enter and form one single Flock under one shepherd. And a hand is needed to reach out beyond the stream which divides to help them to come. Thirst for Me is quite intense there....”
But what can I do? Lose the sleep remaining to me over this gimlet of admonition which is never silent in my thought. Lose tranquillity because I don’t know what to do and am opposed to acting and feel I am displeasing Jesus by not acting. Among our separated brothers and sisters I know only those of Nashdom Abbey by name. And what can I do? And what shall I say? I don’t know English. And why does Jesus want things from me which are superior to my capacities and tendencies? Help me, since - do you realize? - when He wants something, He wants it; and He does not calm down until He gets satisfaction. Jesus says, “Because of the lack of union among peoples, let there be at least union among Christians, for the anti-Christian times are imminent and it is necessary for prophecy to be fulfilled.”
Alright.... But how...? In the meantime, I am giving everything I suffer, reserving a shred for other intentions. I feel it is not enough, and I cannot add other sufferings to those proper to illness. And so?61
60 Sister Maria Gabriella Sagheddu, a Trappist in Grottaferrata (1914-1939), who offered herself for the unity of Christians, proclaimed blessed by Pope John Paul II on January 25, 1983.
61 We pass over forty-seven handwritten pages containing four episodes, dated July 17-20, 1945, and the beginning of a fifth, “The Paralytic at the Bethsaida Pool,” from The Second Year of the Public Life