I said, “How heavy this cross is!” And I was referring to the whole set of circumstances demoralizing me on all sides: deafness, lack of understanding, indecision, greed, and jealousy - all of them spiritual. For the factors which really harm me are these. Not the joyful suffering joining me to Christ on the Cross...!
And Jesus said to me, “Yes, how heavy it is! But it is the last year,180 the saddest one.... And I always remain to support you by offering you my shoulder.... Courage, little crucified one. Courage, out of love for Me and souls....”
I replied, “Yes....” But when will this dark journey be over and when will I be entirely with You, in your Light...?
180 Probably an addition by Father Migliorini to refer to The Third Year of the Public Life.